I bet no one would ever believe I wanted to be a nun when I was young.
Yes, this spunky, highly opinionated, and macabre lady once wanted to don those robes and bless people. Despite having two religions in my lifetime, I’d like to believe I have a thorough view when it comes to faith. And considering the fact that I grew up in a household with highly confusing matriarchal traditional devotees, I needed to be able to form a faith of my own and not be dwindled by hearsay, nor to take every single thing on the Bible literally. However, I am still imperfect, that I know. Just like everything else, it is a continuous process.
To put a thrill into my boring Friday night (even my mother has plans out and I don’t), I went for some interesting titles of movies and happened upon this movie. I’m not Catholic, although I used to be. I have an old friend who is a nun and others who are devoted to Catholicism up to this day. And the beauty about us is that it does not divide us just because we call ourselves differently. More elaboration on that later. Now, back to the movie!
The story centers around Father Daniel (swoon!), who on one night on confession duty meets Jane and begins an odd friendship. This rocks Father Ollie and Victor, seeing the change and the struggle in Daniel and his vocation. I’d delve deep into the plot of the story, but it will just cause a spoiler. Basically good priest meets an electric woman, enjoys her company, and questions his priesthood.
I begin the juicy part of this blog with a question: How does anyone explain how they believe in the existence of their divine entity? How can someone like me, a Christian, explain that God is real?
There was a time when I was in college when an agnostic friend of ours asked our colleague the same question. I felt it was not my place to answer, because firstly the question was not asked to me. And second, well, I didn’t want to overpower him. My colleague was a pastor’s son, and perhaps he knew more about faith than I did.
Faith is something else. It is believing in the unknown without proof, lest you try to seek it. It is, as the Bible says: “–the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” It is following His ways, and not simply knowing it because someone from Sunday School told you. I forgot what he had said, but I remembered what I would have answered.
They say that science and religion cannot ever coincide or the world would crash. Everything would be in chaos than it already is. And life will be over as we know it. But to me, they are as interconnected as deoxyribonucleic acid, or the tangles in my hair.
According to Newton’s Third Law of Physics, every action has an equal or opposite reaction. According to the Law of Conservation of Matter, matter can neither be created nor destroyed. A bajillion years ago, the universe began from a singularity, expanded and cooled, forming life and whatever we are today.
How can a small, tiny thing make an explosion so big that it can make planets, stars, and life? What could have possibly made it happen?
That, my dear friends, is where God comes in. You’re welcome.
Now I know my explanation might sound odd to some, others it might be an aha moment. But having an answer does not help agnostics or atheists to believe, because having a long, complicated answer is not the answer. The answer is simply: faith.
This is where the movie comes in (finally, am I right?). Father Daniel follows God’s ways, but he does not know why he does it. The reason he became a priest was for his father, which seemed like a good idea to him as well. And when Jane comes, one that was so different, it just tipped him right off of the scale. It was not because he was distracted, but because his heart was not ever in it in the first place.
And now you might ask: So what does that mean, Sister Airah?
First of all, don’t light your torches to me just yet. Second, when you plant a foundation on shaky grounds, it will fail to stand through the storm. They don’t call it a calling for nothing. This does not only tackle religion, but also one’s values, perceptions, and to hell with it- even relationships. You would want someone to say ‘I have faith in you’ rather than ‘I love you’. It’s the ultimate act of commitment to anything or anyone. To trust someone without proof or reason? It’s terrifying! But we do it anyway because f a i t h.
For a moment through the movie, I thought Jane was the portrait of temptation. Hell, even Father Victor was so doubtful. But in the end, it all boils down to Daniel, just as it all boils down to us. Is our faith in anything bigger than our fears, our past, and ourselves? How do we look at things that seem to question it? What do we do ourselves then? I’ll leave you to answer that. ⭐️⭐️⭐️