Combustion

One day I am going to realize why you thought it was a great idea to let go
That it was easier
That it was better
That you were the smart, logical one to say so

One day I will understand how you wanted to stay friends
And say you love me
And that you need me
When you specifically wanted this to end

One day I am going to comprehend what went through your mind
To want me
But can’t have me
And still think you were just trying to be kind

Because really? You think that was kind?
To keep me in that cold, dark place
To think in your life I had no space
And then come back here with a hope so bright it made me blind?

Because really? You think it was cool?
For me to hold on to blind hope
Your invisibility I should cope
Until my heart is finally numb, bitter, and cruel?

Because really? You think it was alright?
To come back and expect me
To take you back after hurting me
Making me feel like some fucking accessory, out of mind when out of sight?

Well it’s not
It’s not fucking kind
It’s not fucking cool
It’s not fucking alright

One day I am going to realize why you thought it was a great idea to let go
That it was easier
That it was better
That you were the smart, logical one to say so

One day I will understand how you wanted to stay friends
And say you love me
And that you need me
When you specifically wanted this to end

One day I am going to comprehend what went through your mind
To want me
But can’t have me
And still think you were just trying to be kind

But until then, I’m sorry but all I can say
Is
           Fuck
                          You