I Am Not Going To Be The Person You Talk To When You’re Bored

I am not going to be the person you talk to when you’re bored
When you’re lonely
When you’re horny
When you just want a hand to hold

I am worth more than something you just waste your free time on
More than Facebook, Twitter
More than Reddit, Tumblr
And God forbid, your hard on

Even if it’s for me! And yes, I just said that not because I’m mad
But because I am fucking enraged
At how you expect me to fly and yet you put me in a cage
After you leave me and then come back and make me the one who’s bad

Because when was it so bad to need you when my world was spinning around?
I needed you,
So terribly needed you
And your life spinned too and I didn’t hear a goddamn sound

When was it so bad to ask you here with me?
To where we started
Where we bloomed
Where we left off, where you left me

When was it so bad to try and make it work?
Let me beg for time
Let me feel the pain
Let me have another chance to take that risk even if it hurt

When was it so bad to decide how I’ll handle my own fucking feelings?

When was it so bad to recover from your “love” that was fleeting?

I am not going to be the person you talk to when you’re bored
When you’re lonely
When you’re horny
When you just want a hand to hold

I am a person
A person worthy of more love than that
Worthy of time
Worthy of second chances
Worthy of pain
But you deprived me of all of that

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